Kuwashii is no dull girl, if she were she wouldn’t have survived for this long in the war. Her spiritual senses may not reach out as far as others but she can sense when something is close to her person, such as the Cero forming behind her. With the state she is currently in, it causes her to move in a frenzy, acting before thinking, instincts urging her to move, to survive. All the white hot flames begin pooling back to her blade at this moment as she begins turning her body to address the Cero behind her. With her flames returned the blade begins to swing, her Captain calls out to her to watch out, an appreciated warning. The blade erupts as she uses Yūmeijin in that same new style of erupting all of it all at once.
The flames collide with the still growing Cero and create an explosion that sends Kuwashii flying away from under Cazador before the yellow light snaps down around her, crashing through debris and into a ruined building. The building remains silent until the debris begins to stir, her blade erupting from beneath it all and sending chunks of rubble into the air. Kuwashii climbs out, huffing and puffing with exhaustion, injured from the explosion and close to running on fumes. She hasn’t trained herself to use her Shikai ability in that fashion and as a result it has drained her quite quickly. She stabs her blade into the ground, using it to help her stand as her Captain engages with the Espada and once more she is reduced to a mere spectator. She clutches the handle of her Zanpakuto tightly, on the verge of tears after fighting and striking as hard as she can only to see the enemy still alive and unphased.
She wants to scream with frustration and rage but she must internalize it, she can’t risk distracting her Captain right now. Too weak to help Otokogi in his final moments, forced to watch and eventually rendered unconscious by the constant Reiryoku sapping lightning of the Shiba’s Bankai. Too weak and told to stand down by an Arrancar in Naruki, forced to merely spectate. Too weak to help in Tenth Division against the Espada that attacked, forced to watch as her comrades fought tooth and nail against her. And now, once again, treated like a child too small to reach their target as Cazador, metaphorically, held his hand on her head as she swung wildly at the air and now, once again, forced to spectate. These four things mean one thing, that she is weak. Undeniable proof that she is indeed weak, there is nothing to dispute this fact.
She almost relinquishes her grip on her Zanpakuto when she remembers one single small victory, a victory in the sense that the goal was not to defeat the opponent but survive against them. Kisho Date, a man who others wouldn’t so casually cross blades with who hails from a clan that most people avoid all together. She outright attacked him, fought against him and survived. She fought well enough to earn his attention. She has to survive this, she still has to learn more from him but what more can she do? She has enough energy left to release one more Yūmeijin attack… But what if it isn’t enough? What if it's the tipping point of annoyance from the Arrancar that makes him attack her all out? What if it distracts her Captain and gets him killed? So many factors to consider. She grits her teeth and her massive blade hits the ground along with her falling to her knees. The answer is quite simple and she can see it plain as day, no amount of false motivation can steer her away from it, she either does nothing and spectates or she flees.
She wants to prove herself so much and yet all she has done is fight outside of her weight class, clashing against giants who barely recognize that she is there. She picks up her Zanpakuto and leaps backwards onto a partial rooftop. Her foot slides backwards and she leaps back again to another. She can’t do anything more but leave…Then she hears an ethereal sigh in her mind.
”You are frustrating, child.”
”Shut up! I’m-”
”You are having conniptions, on the verge of crying, and running away out of fear. You are a weak, impudent child.”
Kuwashii remains silent and watches from afar as her Captain combats the Espada. Perhaps her time in the World of the Living has done more harm than good. Masquerading around as a teenager, doing things human teenagers do so often that she forgot her standing in the Seireitei, in the pecking order of the spiritual world. She stands out among humans but among her own peers she may as well be another grunt. Her Zanpakuto is correct.
”Go back to being silent… Stop telling me the obvious…”
”Oh? And I began speaking with the idea of bestowing a gift unto you. A gift you can only use once given your current level of exhaustion. Care to know what it is?”
Kuwashii doesn’t speak, her eyes still locked on the battle, trying to learn something more practical rather than solve riddles. Her Zanpakuto chuckles, the sound of it echoing in her mind as he speaks once more.
”Zōge-iro Chōten (象牙色 頂点: Ivory-white Apex)”
”What?”
She looks down at the flaming blade whose weight she is finally starting to feel for the first time in ages.
”Say it out loud.”
”Zōge-iro… Chōten?”
”Again! With more gusto so I can hear you! Along with those fabled words you’ve been wanting to say for decades now!! Take this portion of my power and become useful for once in your damned life!”
Rising Star
Whatever nefarious deeds Cazador has implemented against her Captain are beyond her since she had removed herself from the vicinity. However, she returns, not as close as last time as she feels a flame burning within her, a flame telling her that she needs space for what she is about to do. She holds her Zanpakuto with both hands, and raises it above her head. Her Reiatsu surges, spiking higher than normal, a spike that is the herald to one thing and one thing only…
”BAN-KAI!!”
The flames on her massive blade go out and a secondary light source shines down on Second Division from directly above their heads. Something boiling and churning with heat and plasma, something that Kuwashii has admired for ages, a real, true to life, White Star.
”Zōge-iro Chōten!!!”
The White Star churns above, causing an aurora borealis to form in the sky immediately above them all. Aside from the sudden increase in light and a slight increase in temperature this orb in the sky has done nothing yet, nor has Kuwashii because she knows she only gets one attack with her Bankai before unconsciousness takes her. She watches and waits quietly, betraying her earlier reckless bravado that gained her nothing. Be it as a distraction or as an attack she will aid in bringing down this Espada, even if it kills her. For the sake of the Soul Society.
”Just one opening… Just one attack… That’s all I need… Come on…”
The clock is ticking, will she be able to find that fabled opening she is hoping on or will her Bankai display go to waste as it slowly burns away her remaining Reiryoku while it is active? Only time will tell…